My Journey To A Healthier Me || Mental & Physical

This is something I’ve been wanting to do for a long time, but every time I’ve tried I’ve let something come between my motivation, but not this time!

I can commit to a therapist but I can’t commit to the gym, yet both are supposed to release emotional stress. With that, I’ve decided to put the same energy I put into therapy into exercising! How fun is that?!

The physical

I’ve been experimenting with different exercises to see what works for me and after about a million different ones I’ve settled on these: squats, push ups, jogging and leg toning exercises. My goal is to do them 3 times a day on a good day or twice a day at minimum. I wonder how long I can keep this up for….

But seriously, I’ve been doing this for 3 days now and I already feel a bit better. I usually put on a tv show to distract me while I exercise and it actually works out really well. I find comedy shows do the trick.

Here’s a run down on my activities:

  • Squats for 1 minute
  • Rest for a minute
  • Pushups for a minute
  • Rest for a minute
  • Lay on my back with my legs in the air, point my toes and then at a moderate pace bend each leg down separately for a minute (I don’t actually know what it’s called so I hope that description makes some sense) this tones your thighs
  • Rest for a minute
  • Do the same as above but don’t point your toes, this tones your calf muscles for a minute
  • Rest for a minute
  • Jog on the spot for around 5-10 minutes

It sounds like a lot but the times goes quickly, I promise! The more you do it the quicker you see results, plus you don’t need equipment! It also helps to focus on the body you want while you do it, it will motivate you the most.

I can’t commit to the gym no matter how hard I try, I just can’t and that’s okay. That doesn’t stop me from exercising at home, does it?

The mental

Ruminating sucks, negativity sucks, toxic people suck and depression sucks. I always ruminate, it’s so tiring and exhausting that I want to change the habit. So far, I’ve bought 3 little notebooks and in each on I do 30 days of gratitude, 31 days of self love and 30 days of the be more positive challenge. I basically write down each question a day and answer them, you really have to focus on the answer which helps to distract you.

My down fall is being able to remember 99% of the things people say to me which then lingers in my head for months and months. As you’ve read on my blog somewhere, I was bullied in psychological targeting for over a year in high school and after high school ended I remembered word for word what they said and did to me for around 3 years….Mental exhaustion is real guys. I pretty much started to heal and forget about it when I felt like I was heard, when if let like people tried to understand the situation I was put through, through no fault of my own. I still hold on to parts of it which effect me to this day but nowhere near as badly as it used to thank god. But back to what I was saying…

So I’m starting to focus on the good, and with that means more blog posts, more reviews, more writing and doing mental health challenges, seeing a psychologist and not taking my mental health problems out on people….because that’s not fair. I’m also giving second chances a go, in that I’m happy to give people another go rather than maintain that the person is an asshole and cut them off for good.

I’m also getting really into my hobbies and study, that way I don’t have time for anything to get into my head that shouldn’t be there. I’m reflecting ore on life lessons to see what I can change for next time the same or similar events arise which I feel is helpful.

I suffered pretty bad PTSD a couple of years ago which meant that if I saw similar patterns to what happened to me in the past I’d cut people lose straight away, no ifs buts or maybes. I’m trying to break that wall down and give people a chance, because I’m sure some people weren’t aware of what they were doing.

I also have quotes up around my desk, things like “focus on the good” “great things ever come from comfort zones” “believe in yourself and you’ll be unstoppable” I’m sure you get the picture. Quotes help so much because they make you really think about them and inspire you!

I also have a list of the good things in my life on my wall which is about 18 lines long which really help to ground me in times of trouble. Self improvement books are also the bees knees.

I’m also not letting people get to me, which means doing things for myself like finally dying my hair they colour I want. Woo hoo to not living by other people’s opinions! On that, make sure you’re friends with like minded and supportive people!

Let me sum it up…

Find an inspiration, find yourself, be yourself, maintain your health and everything else will fall in place. Habits are hard to break so don’t be so hard on yourself if you fall down, get back up and start again. I find being supportive to other people makes you feel good because you’re helping other people and not doing it for yourself, which is a good thing to live by.

What’s coming up next on the blog

  • Reviews
  • Photography
  • Clothing and makeup
  • Life lessons
  • And so on!


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